Again It seems I am at the crossroads of my life. Again my faith is asking me various obfuscated questions. Life never cease to surprise me and challenge my beliefs ..my faith..
Its not that I have not tried. Its not that I have not fought. Its not that I have lost or won. Its now, I guess becoming a question of my existence asking “how long?”
I fight for something each time I woke up in the morning with the belief , I can , and I will… but that thing in itself leaves me in a nomad’s land.. I wonder from where to draw energy from. sometimes the whole reason of a fight beats you to death.
In this whole process.. every single emotion of my soul is leaving me..drop by drop..I wonder when everything will be drained out of the whole system of this cosmic existence.
And when we ran out of the whole panorama of reasons.. we say its destiny..
Why can’t the two of us can be in a simple system of existence. I need you and you need me period. I want to live ..you want to live period. I want you to believe in me as I believe in you.. as I believe in US..
I wish ..I could disappear…
Should I? Should I quit!